Journey Day 289

This morning as I was getting ready for work I had a mini panic attack. I'm not even sure if I would call it a panic attack, but I started freaking out a little bit. This weekend I am going to Upstate New York to start my training for a pretty big missions trip. If God continues to open the doors, I will be going to China for 10  months starting in August. Which brings me to my mini panic attack. Throughout this whole process I have managed to keep a pretty cool head and I have not started to freak out, but this morning as I was thinking about going to mini-camp and going to China, my chest started to tighten, breathing got a little harder and I panicked! The conversation in my head went a little like this... "I. Am. Going. To. China. I'm leaving my friends, family, school, and everything I hold near and dear to fly across the globe for 10 whole months. I only have one more month of school left before I leave for a year. When I come back most of my closest friends will be graduated and what if it's like I have to start all over again?" I took a few deep breaths and calmed myself down, all the while these fears were just chilling in the back of my mind. But as I sat at the computer at work, looking up verses on contentment, God gave me this verse... "Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go," Joshua 1:9. This was exactly what I need this morning. I feel like God was saying, "Sarah, didn't I tell you where I wanted you to go and what I wanted you to do? Why are you doubting me? Why are you worrying? You don't have to be afraid or discouraged because I will be with you while you are in China. Be strong." I think the strongest and most convicting part of that verse was the beginning. "Have I not commanded you?" When God shows you what you need to do, you just gotta do it. You can't doubt God and His sovereignty, you just have to go. Who am I to doubt the creator of the universe? For He will be with me wherever I go.