Journey Day 98

I had this huge blog planned, I was going to talk about John M. Perkins, a man of love, and peace, and more importantly a man of God, but instead God showed me something else today. I was having one of those days. My heart ached, but there was no specific reason, I just ached. I felt lonely I guess? I got in my car and I just drove, I didn't know where I wanted to be, but I knew it wasn't at home. First I went to the Starbucks near my apartment, it was too slammed, there wasn't one chair open, and I knew I needed to sit, drink coffee and spend some time with Jesus, so back in my car I got. I drove in the direction of school, towards the other Starbucks I knew of. When I got there, I got out of my car, walked in and luckily there was a table open. I sat down with my cup of coffee, a devotion on the attributes of God, and a broken humbled heart. The first section was titled, God is faithful. I started looking up each bible verse it gave, and one of them was Lamentations 3:23, which says, "They are new every morning, great is your faithfulness." So I decided I would read the verse in context. Lamentations 3:19-26 & 31-32 says, "I remember my affliction and my wandering, the bitterness and the gall. I will remember them, and my soul is downcast with in me. Yet this I call to mind, and therefore I have hope; because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. I say to myself, ' the Lord is my portion : therefore I will wait for him.' The Lord is good to those whose hope is in him. It is good to wait quietly for the salvation of the Lord... For men are not cast off by the Lord forever. Though he brings grief, he will show compassion, so great is his unfailing love." The author of Lamentations is unknown, but he was a man of wisdom. I will always remember my heart break, the memories of my brokenness with never be far from me, and my soul will be downcast within me, BUT because of God's GREAT love (not just average love but GREAT), I am not consumed by my brokenness, or my heartbreak, in those moments, God's compassion rains down on me! His compassion and love is new every morning, because he is faithful! Though he brings grief, he will show compassion because once again GREAT is his UNFAILING love! It's never ending and unconditional. On this day, when I was feeling all alone, once again God came up beside me showered me with compassion. As I sat there reading his word, enjoying my coffee, bathing in his love, in walked my good friend Krystal. And suddenly I wasn't so alone anymore. She sat at my table with me, and listened, and let me cry, and gave me sound advice. I was blessed by her today, in a moment of brokenness, God showered me with compassion. He reminded me that I can't do it alone, I need Him so I shouldn't get cocky, and He blessed me with comforting words in His book, and finally He gave me a friend when I needed it the most, she was a gift straight from God! Only my God can take what feels like a hopeless day, and fill it with love and hope and grace. Only my God! : )