Journey Day 130

Today I am going to real with you. I try my absolute best to be real with you every day, but today I am going to be real with you about my latest struggle. Lately I have been wondering if in my pursuit of "Christ-like" character I acted unChrist-like to the people in my life that needed and deserved it most. I told them God was making all these changes in me, but if I didn't love them in the way they deserve, unconditionally, then I how could they possibly see those changes? Even in this journey, there are so many things I wish I could change, or go back and do differently. Sometimes it is frustrating and disheartening when I'm trying so hard to seek God's heart, and yet still I am so far from it. I am so far from seeing people the way God sees them, and I am so far from treating people the way God would. Sometimes I have what my friend and I have deemed "judgement eyes". And I judge them without even meaning to! My prayer has been that God would show me my own faults and flaws, and I guess today, that is what's happening. It isn't bad, it's what I've been asking for, it's just difficult.It's like when your pray for patience, and God puts you in a situation that requires more patience than you've ever had to have in your entire life. He puts you in a situation where the only way you'll get through it is if you fully depend on Him to give you the strength! It's never easy to look at yourself, and embrace your flaws so you can fix them, but I know that is what I have to do. I want God to correct me and correct any way that is apart from Him. I know that I am different than I was, I know that God is changing me for the best, but sometimes its good for me to remember that I still have a long way to go, and I'll only get there with the help of my loving Savior! Know that this isn't me being down on myself, I am confident that God will bring me where I need to be in His perfect timing. I pray that He will show me how to love as He loves. I know that kind of love is perfect love, and that is my goal.