Journey day 62

I'm beginning to realize that I was a pretty crappy person, I'm not saying that I am perfect now, but before I started this journey my priorities were just not what they should have been. Time with God was at the bottom of my to-do list, he rated second best and it was reflected in my attitude. I said some mean things about people. Things that I had no business saying, things that if the people ever heard they would be so hurt. What made me think that was ok? I have no answer for you. One of the girls that I had said cruel things about confronted me the other day, and I was so grateful! It gave me the opportunity to apologize to her, and you know what, it was really hard to hear. It was convicting, but it was just what I needed because it reminds me that I need to not be that way. My harsh words discouraged her, and brought her down, I need to encourage people, and build them up. I need to live a life that reflects Romans 13:8, "Let no debt remain outstanding, except the continuing debt to love one another, for he who loves his fellowman has fulfilled the law." I'm not perfect at controlling my tongue, but I am getting better, and the closer I get to God the easier it is, and the more I desire it. My calling is to love God's creation, and when I would talk about others that was not loving them, that was me hurting them. I'm not perfect, and you know what, I never will be, I'm just doing the best I can, to follow God to the best of my ability. Every single day he gives me new reason to hold tight to his promises and to live for him. "He is my rock and my redeemer, the reason that I sing. I desire to be a blessing in your eyes."(May The Words of My Mouth)